Coming through the grief

This has definitely been an interesting year. The loss both of our mothers took more out of me than I realized. Grief is very tough thing. Not only was I grieving the loss of my mother, I was grieving the loss of my mother-in-law. It was a very hard process for me. In July all the feelings I went through with Andrew’s death 8 years ago came rushing back. I felt I was at the beginning of grieving process all over again.

I backed away from friends and activities because I just didn’t have the energy to deal with things outside of the house. Even taking care of things inside the house was difficult at times. It has taken me the better part of the last 6 months to work my way through it all. I am in a much better place now and am actually looking forward to Christmas Day, even though it is the anniversary of my mother’s death. We have decorated the house: the tree is up, the outside lights are lit and our Elf on the Shelf, Happy Red Fred, is making his daily appearances.

Soon we will start the Christmas baking, something we haven’t really done the past three years. Emma and I sat down today and decided on the cookies we will be making this year. We have picked some oldies the family loves: snickerdoodles, chocolate crinkles, peanut blossoms, chocolate chip cookies and of course, fudge. We are also going to add in some new ones: Russian tea cakes, candy cane cookies and basic sugar cookies.

Later on this week we plan our Christmas week menus and activities. My two oldest now have beaus and they will be visiting over the holidays, plus we will other friends and family coming to visit so I want to make sure we are well stocked with food and drinks for those people who will float in and out over the holidays.

This week I really need to get on the wrapping. All of the presents have been purchased, now I just need to wrap them. I really dislike wrapping! Richard is talking about taking the children out shopping tomorrow, so I probably use that time and wrap his presents. After his presents are wrapped, either of us can wrap when we have a free moment.

I hope your Christmas plans are coming together for you and your family. Mine finally are.